soulfully living
Spring is somehow suddenly here & I feel refreshed. I’ve been writing more than ever. I’ve started a new job which has altered my perception on self growth. This process was easy and all along the way, I didn’t feel like myself. But now, a few patience months later, I am a fuller version of myself— reassured, capable & calm.
It’s like I’m 16 again, filled with eagerness to fight for what I want. Surely still guessing my way through every step of postgrad, but inching towards a new curiosity to explore every day.
All the while, I’m 30, reminiscent of the “good ol’ college days” reflecting on how my biggest worries then, are minuscule and humorous now. Maybe it’s because of the notable four year marks of high school and college, but these chunky intervals seem like they’ve hit me with full force—like tectonic shifts, not steps.
These intervals felt like such a prolonged time, but these 12 months growing from 21 to 22, has felt like a tectonic shift, pressing and pushing in these different aspects of my life: all my relationships, what I value and see myself as, who I desire and aspire to breathe and be, what I want to do for others in this phase in life.
All of these words make it seem like I’ve been endlessly bending and breaking, but consequences—not all bad—have led me astray for impactful reasons and it has brought me to one of the biggest curveball lessons yet: nothing in life is all that serious. I used to believe that everything had to be planned and that spontaneity couldn’t be responsible. Changes are happening around us day in and day out, and cautiously living doesn’t make life any easier. Soulfully living and giving yourself the freedom you deserve is what drives you closer to being more yourself and towards the best version of y o u.
